BIG LOSER!!!!

Well here I am a month later for another blog. Christmas was so good! Drake had a great day even though he had a runny nose and so I went to give him cold medicine but ended up OD'ing him on Benedryl and called poison control and tried to gag him. Funny thing though, poison control said he would be just fine but he was either going to be VERY tired or hyper, tired being more likely. Well he was hyper! Yay! Merry Christmas! LOL, he was OK though. One thing I’ll never do is give Drake medicine when I have only had two hours of sleep. Oi. We did have a very good and unusually, fortunate Christmas. :D
January has been fun. I have lost five more pounds since Christmas and still working on 20 more pounds. I MUST weigh 120!!! I just bought a new work out DVD by Jillian Michaels, a trainer off TV from "The Biggest Loser." She is VERY tough. I am so so so so so so so so so so SO sore. I did the video though again today even though I feel like my ass has been beat with a baseball bat. The video is called "30 Day Shred," if you are looking for a crazy workout, check it out for sure!
I have also been doing Weight Watchers too. But I haven't been doing it for quite a week yet. But so far, so good. And I am using Laurel's old point counter stuff so I am not going to meetings or anything like that. But I have read through all the information and printed up my own point tracking books. I weigh in once a week and do measurements once a month. I will update in a month on that and hopefully I have lost a million pounds! :P JK not possible :P Ha ha...
Anyways onto how Drake and Jason have been doing... Drake has been taking on the art of tantrum throwing. OMG. It is horrid and so embarrassing. It is hard to enjoy a nice shopping trip anymore. And going out to eat? Forget it! He is only good for that every once in awhile. When he is good, you are constantly nervous its going to go sour. But I still love his baby bum! Today was Drakes first day at a day care today. Like a REAL day care. He LOVED being with the other children. And they had a whole schedule mapped out for the day. He had such a good time he didn't want to come home! Lol, I think I am going to use them on the days that I don't have sitters, like family or Jason. I am so sick of taking him to a different stranger every single time I need a baby-sitter when FAM isn't available. And at least now he will have kids to play with and stuff. They feed him and do snack too, so that's nice and its really not expensive at all, they only charged $5 p/h which is AMAZING for a full on Day care. And they do "school" time. So its good. I cried the whole way to work though. I hate having to work, and leave him with people. But I have to, I have GOT to. And I suppose it gives me some "adult" time as well as giving Drake "kid" time. :P I just wish being a working mom wasn't so hard. Its so hard to find a babysitter that you KNOW will take care of him and treat him well. Then when you do its hard to keep them permanent. They have other stuff they do, or are full on kids. Not many people just tend kids out of their home anymore. Most moms are working mothers now days. Money is just so, so , so POOPY! Blah!
Anyway onto Jason... He is still at Wal-Mart, and he is now permanent, :D which is awesome. We were scared he would be done after Christmas, but they did end up making him permanent and he also got promoted to be a CSM, and got a raise! YAY! Good luck is finding its way in some places! And he is having a way, way good time there which is good, I like him to be happy. :D As for the whole P.O.S.T. stuff, unfortunately he won't be able to do that because they just have to many people and can't afford to do another class. But at least he tried! I am so proud of him, he made it all that way and the only reason he didn't get it is because they can't do anymore classes. Everything happens for a reason I have discovered and its probably for the best.
I don’t really have much else to say at the moment. But Jason and I are doing relatively well. Life is still life and always will be, but we are good.
OH YEAH, Becca, not my sis Becca, had her baby and she sent me a pix message of him but I haven’t seen him yet. She is out pretty far but I am going to go try and see him POSSIBLY tomorrow if she is ok with it. He looks like he is a cute lil booger! I <3 Becca!
Anyway that’s all for now! I’ll try to update soon!

Looking up...

Well hello to Becca I should say because I believe you are the only one who reads this! However, I decided to write to let everyone (Becca) know how my life is going...
Jason found a job about a month ago and he was hired on to be seasonal help at the official center of hell... WAL-MART! However, it turns out that place is not so bad after all. They LOVE him there! Jason does a fantastic job there. SO GOOD in fact that the are hiring him to be full time and are going to train him to be a CSM(MaNaGeR)! THEREFORE, we are thrilled about that and he seems to be very happy he feels needed, which is important for Jason.
IN ADDITION, he has been in the interview process to go through P.O.S.T. training (no not to be a mail carrier) for the prison. He has passed all the circus tests so far and we are just waiting for him to be able to enroll in the class, which takes place every 3 months. January is full so we have our fingers crossed for March. We have been running faithfully (sort of) every other night to get him ready for the classes. I have been on a healthy diet since we started and I have gained lots of muscle tone (my ass looks awesome!) and lost, amazingly, a lot of fat. My clothes fit a lot better. I have lost 13 pounds in a month, I am thrilled, and I am still losing. I do weight lifting every other day we do not run. It is awesome!
I just finished up "A Christmas Carol" at the theatre today and will not be there for a while because they do not need techies for the upcoming show. I HOPE THAT they will need me for “Phantom” I would DIE to that show! However, in the mean time for money I will be at the second circle of hell, Chili's. : P JK I <3 Chili's. They are good to me. I started back there a couple of weeks ago it has been going ok. I am currently shopping for an "hourly" daycare for Drake that meets my standards. SO if you know of any let me know! I think it will be good for him to be around all the kids he loves so much to play.
Finally, I think Christmas will not be so bad for Drake after all because we ended up getting him many presents! I was so afraid he would not have a Christmas but things worked out for me ok on that one for once.
It is nice that most things in my life have gone ok lately, because we have had such seemingly bad luck with money this year. Honestly, it has brought Jason and me close together. He is my best friend and I will always be there for him even when he thinks I am a "B" word. He is so cute and I love him so much! I love my little darling boys! MUAH! Merry Holidays everyone who does not read this! (And Becca, who does :P)

Elmo and Nemo

SO right now Drakes favorite imaginary guys are Elmo and Nemo. I can not got to the store without him pointing out every single picture of Elmo and every picture of a fish "Nemo". Its so cute! He notices really little pictures of Elmo from far away, its amazing how much he is really paying attention to everything. He is so smart! Jason and I love to play hide and seek with him around the house. Its so funny to watch him try to find us and when he figures out where we are he walks by a few times and looks right at us but acts like he didn't see us then finally will just run up and get us. Its so cute! When he is doing something wrong Jason will start counting down from 5 and Drake things Jason is asking to "Give him 5" so he runs up and slaps Jason's hand "5", lol. Its so sweet how innocent he is!
Also, he is scared to death of the Halloween isle at the store. Last year he thought that stuff was funny but this year its scary. Its so neat how he learned whats "good" and "bad". Even though we try to tell him the stuff isn't scary he remains convinced its gonna get him.

Its been a while...

And some things have changed, good and bad, I guess... We are starting to catch up with our money still but that may be at a halt soon. Jason lost his job this past Monday, the shady one. The one where they told him to be a rude as he liked to the customers. Guess what he got fired for?? "Being rude to customers and things like that..." I'm not surprised it happened though. I knew it was coming it was just a matter of when. You can't expect to work for people that could care less about their customers, which is usually #1 for a company, to care about the employee's. Job's keep letting Jason down. He has done a couple of jobs on the side lately that were shady too, one that said they would pay him in cash paid him with a gift certificate to get his picture taken, how nice!
On a lighter note, Tuesday he went for an interview to be a prison guard and made it almost to the end, but in March we got a ticket for no proof of insurance so they told him they couldn't hire him unless he could get the judge to dismiss the charges. Jason's mom got our attorney to go to court the next day AND they got the judge to dismiss ALL charges and it will be taken off his record. SO Jason is back in the running to getting the job. But the job won't start until January 5th so we are in the predicament of him finding a job for money until then. Or permanently, because he doesn't have the job, yet... So the plot thickens in our bad luck streak, a little good in there but who knows if that little good will stick. We will see I guess. I definitely have my fingers crossed and I am saying my prayers.
Drake is growing up so much and so fast. He learns tons of new things every day and he is so smart. I love watching him bloom into this little person that he is discovering to be. I hope that I am teaching him right and I am trying to clean up my language around him so he doesn't drop the "f" word one of these days. If he ever does it will probably be in front of some churchy people that drop by my house attempting to get me to come to church, hahahaha I WISH.... But really I am trying to, its so hard though and I forget all the time until I see those big blue eyes as I am saying the words I am trying to stop and I kick myself. He is listening and his little mouth will say them if I don't watch it.

Light at the end of the tunnel...

Ok so, now that I have been as low as I think I could have gone on the chain, things are starting to look up. Jason's mom has been helping us get caught up on our bills and helping us budget out money for gas and things. It is still not all better, but I have a good feeling it will be ok. :) Things seem to be looking up, so far so good. But Im still holding my breath I don't want to breathe easy too soon...


Anyways, Last Monday night Ashley told me she had her "bloody show" and I went straight to her house from work and timed contractions with her and Kelly, 11 hours later CadyAnn was born!!! 7 lbs. 6 oz. , 20 1/2 inches! Woo hoo! She is so beautiful! I am very happy for them! She was born August 5, 2008 at 9:08 AM. Right on her due date! Hehe I love her!

This past weekend we also went camping, its the first time Drake has been camping and I was sooooo sooo soooooo nervous! The whole week I was hoping we would be far away from any creeks, and guess what? Our camp ground my mom reserved was RIGHT next to one. But I watched him like a hawk the whole time and didn't show him the water at all so he wouldn't be interested and thank heavens we made it home alive! Wow, I am paranoid. Lol but it was a fun trip, I enjoyed it and so did my boys. :) After sleeping on the ground though, I realized Im not as tough as I used to be, the ground SUCKS! :P I love my bed very very much and I also love showers, hehe. :D Well thats all for now!

The taste of ink is getting old...

Blah, Blah, Blah... I just don't know how to feel anymore. It seems that so much in my life is a problem. No money, no health insurance, truckloads of debt, and it is so frustrating to me right now that I can't help Jason find a job that he really fits into or even likes for that matter and he likes the people he works for. He would like to go to school but that always circles around to the stupid money matter.
Right now he is working at a "phone" job where people call in and are angry because they want to cancel a subscription to a "free" trial of weight loss pills that they get charged for after their 2 week "trail". So he gets to be as snotty as he likes to them and get away with it. And when he isn't taking calls he gets to sit on his ass and play on the Internet. If I know Jason the way I think I do this will be fun to him for a short, short time and he will end up getting frustrated with being bored and some how get into trouble. I have seen it happen before when he worked for IHC. I just feel sick and worried about it. I am not sure exactly what bothers me so much its such a huge stew of feelings right now but my female intuition tells me something is wrong... Just don't know what, yet...

My lil Cowboy

About a week ago my mom and I took Drake to have his pictures taken. They turned out so cute! I am so thankful for the technology we have today and I am able to capture those little moments in time. Because Drake is growing up so quickly! Not only that life is going by quickly too. Its cool that I have documentation for my kids and grand kids to look at and remember our family with. :) Yay for pictures!!!