Looking up...

Well hello to Becca I should say because I believe you are the only one who reads this! However, I decided to write to let everyone (Becca) know how my life is going...
Jason found a job about a month ago and he was hired on to be seasonal help at the official center of hell... WAL-MART! However, it turns out that place is not so bad after all. They LOVE him there! Jason does a fantastic job there. SO GOOD in fact that the are hiring him to be full time and are going to train him to be a CSM(MaNaGeR)! THEREFORE, we are thrilled about that and he seems to be very happy he feels needed, which is important for Jason.
IN ADDITION, he has been in the interview process to go through P.O.S.T. training (no not to be a mail carrier) for the prison. He has passed all the circus tests so far and we are just waiting for him to be able to enroll in the class, which takes place every 3 months. January is full so we have our fingers crossed for March. We have been running faithfully (sort of) every other night to get him ready for the classes. I have been on a healthy diet since we started and I have gained lots of muscle tone (my ass looks awesome!) and lost, amazingly, a lot of fat. My clothes fit a lot better. I have lost 13 pounds in a month, I am thrilled, and I am still losing. I do weight lifting every other day we do not run. It is awesome!
I just finished up "A Christmas Carol" at the theatre today and will not be there for a while because they do not need techies for the upcoming show. I HOPE THAT they will need me for “Phantom” I would DIE to that show! However, in the mean time for money I will be at the second circle of hell, Chili's. : P JK I <3 Chili's. They are good to me. I started back there a couple of weeks ago it has been going ok. I am currently shopping for an "hourly" daycare for Drake that meets my standards. SO if you know of any let me know! I think it will be good for him to be around all the kids he loves so much to play.
Finally, I think Christmas will not be so bad for Drake after all because we ended up getting him many presents! I was so afraid he would not have a Christmas but things worked out for me ok on that one for once.
It is nice that most things in my life have gone ok lately, because we have had such seemingly bad luck with money this year. Honestly, it has brought Jason and me close together. He is my best friend and I will always be there for him even when he thinks I am a "B" word. He is so cute and I love him so much! I love my little darling boys! MUAH! Merry Holidays everyone who does not read this! (And Becca, who does :P)

Elmo and Nemo

SO right now Drakes favorite imaginary guys are Elmo and Nemo. I can not got to the store without him pointing out every single picture of Elmo and every picture of a fish "Nemo". Its so cute! He notices really little pictures of Elmo from far away, its amazing how much he is really paying attention to everything. He is so smart! Jason and I love to play hide and seek with him around the house. Its so funny to watch him try to find us and when he figures out where we are he walks by a few times and looks right at us but acts like he didn't see us then finally will just run up and get us. Its so cute! When he is doing something wrong Jason will start counting down from 5 and Drake things Jason is asking to "Give him 5" so he runs up and slaps Jason's hand "5", lol. Its so sweet how innocent he is!
Also, he is scared to death of the Halloween isle at the store. Last year he thought that stuff was funny but this year its scary. Its so neat how he learned whats "good" and "bad". Even though we try to tell him the stuff isn't scary he remains convinced its gonna get him.

Its been a while...

And some things have changed, good and bad, I guess... We are starting to catch up with our money still but that may be at a halt soon. Jason lost his job this past Monday, the shady one. The one where they told him to be a rude as he liked to the customers. Guess what he got fired for?? "Being rude to customers and things like that..." I'm not surprised it happened though. I knew it was coming it was just a matter of when. You can't expect to work for people that could care less about their customers, which is usually #1 for a company, to care about the employee's. Job's keep letting Jason down. He has done a couple of jobs on the side lately that were shady too, one that said they would pay him in cash paid him with a gift certificate to get his picture taken, how nice!
On a lighter note, Tuesday he went for an interview to be a prison guard and made it almost to the end, but in March we got a ticket for no proof of insurance so they told him they couldn't hire him unless he could get the judge to dismiss the charges. Jason's mom got our attorney to go to court the next day AND they got the judge to dismiss ALL charges and it will be taken off his record. SO Jason is back in the running to getting the job. But the job won't start until January 5th so we are in the predicament of him finding a job for money until then. Or permanently, because he doesn't have the job, yet... So the plot thickens in our bad luck streak, a little good in there but who knows if that little good will stick. We will see I guess. I definitely have my fingers crossed and I am saying my prayers.
Drake is growing up so much and so fast. He learns tons of new things every day and he is so smart. I love watching him bloom into this little person that he is discovering to be. I hope that I am teaching him right and I am trying to clean up my language around him so he doesn't drop the "f" word one of these days. If he ever does it will probably be in front of some churchy people that drop by my house attempting to get me to come to church, hahahaha I WISH.... But really I am trying to, its so hard though and I forget all the time until I see those big blue eyes as I am saying the words I am trying to stop and I kick myself. He is listening and his little mouth will say them if I don't watch it.

Light at the end of the tunnel...

Ok so, now that I have been as low as I think I could have gone on the chain, things are starting to look up. Jason's mom has been helping us get caught up on our bills and helping us budget out money for gas and things. It is still not all better, but I have a good feeling it will be ok. :) Things seem to be looking up, so far so good. But Im still holding my breath I don't want to breathe easy too soon...


Anyways, Last Monday night Ashley told me she had her "bloody show" and I went straight to her house from work and timed contractions with her and Kelly, 11 hours later CadyAnn was born!!! 7 lbs. 6 oz. , 20 1/2 inches! Woo hoo! She is so beautiful! I am very happy for them! She was born August 5, 2008 at 9:08 AM. Right on her due date! Hehe I love her!

This past weekend we also went camping, its the first time Drake has been camping and I was sooooo sooo soooooo nervous! The whole week I was hoping we would be far away from any creeks, and guess what? Our camp ground my mom reserved was RIGHT next to one. But I watched him like a hawk the whole time and didn't show him the water at all so he wouldn't be interested and thank heavens we made it home alive! Wow, I am paranoid. Lol but it was a fun trip, I enjoyed it and so did my boys. :) After sleeping on the ground though, I realized Im not as tough as I used to be, the ground SUCKS! :P I love my bed very very much and I also love showers, hehe. :D Well thats all for now!

The taste of ink is getting old...

Blah, Blah, Blah... I just don't know how to feel anymore. It seems that so much in my life is a problem. No money, no health insurance, truckloads of debt, and it is so frustrating to me right now that I can't help Jason find a job that he really fits into or even likes for that matter and he likes the people he works for. He would like to go to school but that always circles around to the stupid money matter.
Right now he is working at a "phone" job where people call in and are angry because they want to cancel a subscription to a "free" trial of weight loss pills that they get charged for after their 2 week "trail". So he gets to be as snotty as he likes to them and get away with it. And when he isn't taking calls he gets to sit on his ass and play on the Internet. If I know Jason the way I think I do this will be fun to him for a short, short time and he will end up getting frustrated with being bored and some how get into trouble. I have seen it happen before when he worked for IHC. I just feel sick and worried about it. I am not sure exactly what bothers me so much its such a huge stew of feelings right now but my female intuition tells me something is wrong... Just don't know what, yet...

My lil Cowboy

About a week ago my mom and I took Drake to have his pictures taken. They turned out so cute! I am so thankful for the technology we have today and I am able to capture those little moments in time. Because Drake is growing up so quickly! Not only that life is going by quickly too. Its cool that I have documentation for my kids and grand kids to look at and remember our family with. :) Yay for pictures!!!

All you need is love...

So this past Wednesday was my 3rd wedding anniversary! I have been married for three years!!!! Time goes by so quickly! Last night I went to a bridal shower for a girl that I had grown up with and used to play with each other virtually every single day. Its so strange how time changes... Anyway, on Wednesday Jason came home and bought me flowers that were the colors of our wedding, it was so sweet :P he he. Then we went to Rodizio Grill for dinner. OH MY it was SO good! They have all these meats they bring around to you that they barbecue on skewers. It was some of the most tender meat I had ever tasted! That's all we had time for on Wednesday though because Jason had to work. But this weekend we are both off and plan on doing something fun together. :) Sometimes Jason and I don't get along the best, don't agree on a few things form time to time, and have our little bumps in the road... But I wouldn't have it any other way because he makes me happy and I love him. I am so happy it has been three years already and I so happy I will be with him always. <3

Kissie, Kissie

Right before I was going to sign off I remembered this video we had taken of Drake yesterday and had to share it! Recently he has learned to give kisses, but he doesn't give them willingly...

Fun in the sun

Today was the very first time Drake has been to Lagoon! We took him to the water park and played for a couple of hours. The water was sooo cold even though it was way warm outside. I think that its not quite warm enough out yet for the sun to heat the water. But we had fun. We are going to take him back when its not so cold. He hugged my leg a lot because he was shivering. But Jason still showed him a good time.We finally got tired of swimming so we decided to take him on some rides. They have a new ride at Lagoon for kids called Odyssey. Its a great big squid that has little fish on each of its tentacles that you sit in and his arm go up and down and little fountains squirt at you while you go around. Jason said as soon as the ride started up he clung to his arm and that it was so cute. He is still quite too small for many of the rides though. I remember when I was little and it was our Lagoon day, being so excited to go. I am way excited to make those memories for Drake as he grows up.

Happy Fathers Day!

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Hard Days Night...

Work, work, work all the time. Today was my mom's first day back at work in 30 years. It was also Jason's second day at his brand new job. We have been so broke, it will be nice that he has this new job. We had been living off both of us serving. ( I work at Chili's, and he worked at Joe's Crab Shack) And it wasn't enough.. All of our bills went straight down hill. With him having a steady income each week, it will be a tremendous life saver. But... with my mom going back to work, she works all different shifts and Jason works 10 hour days, 5 days a week... I am totally screwed with who will watch Drake with my job. :( I am so happy for my mom, but I find it hard to be really truly happy, because I am stuck with no one to watch my son for free. I feel so selfish... I can't afford daycare or to pay somebody for tending. I wish so much I could just be able to work only a few days a week and be home with my baby the rest of the time. Oh well, I guess thats just the way life goes sometimes.

Our Family Portrait

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